hide and seek

i have nothing holding me together. i no longer know what i'm doing, where i'm heading, or what i want. blah.

blah blah.

i have so much to figure out, but i can't talk about it. all i've been doing is talking about it and i haven't been saying anything.

i just want to escape it all. but i can't escape myself. that's what i've really been trying to run away from. unsuccessfully, of course. and i haven't been running towards anything.

i want to melt myself into a puddle, just melt to the floor and swish around a little, and then possibly consider resolidifying. maybe. but it would just feel so good to be liquid, fluid, no tense muscle, no fight against gravity.

i'm lost. and cold. and tired.

contemplation is a lonesome affair.

i might not survive winter this year.

swing, swing, swing from the tangles of my heart

i can't help the way i feel.

i just wish i could understand it.

when did i become such a freaking girl?

adjectives on the typewriter he moves his words like a prizefighter

5 things said to me in the past week that made me smile so big i didn't know what to do with myself...

i'm addicted to you
~Emily

hey kiddo
~Jeff

how in the hell are you?
~Alex

how are you beautiful?
~Bennett

what are they saying about my girl?
~Kendrick